Saturday, 24 August 2024

No Way Back

"But I could tell Death, I have loved you and so I am deeper than scythes." 

- John Moriarty  


On the other side of this bloody gaping wound 

Which cast 'us' asunder into a 'you' and 'me' 

I feel blindly robbed of an anthropology

Unable to find my way around the person I used to be


What is the alchemical recipe from who I used to be to who I now am?

From which forest can the ingredients for the tremendous be foraged?

And at what personal cost? What bears and barriers lie in wait? 

Are there dangers hidden in retracing steps that turn flesh into pillars of salt?  


Answer me, so that I may remember Eden

And my place under the shade of an unassuming tree

Without instructions, pitfalls and repercussions this time

Point me to where it is buried, and I'll unearth it


The gates to the old me are locked from the inside

All I carry with in my pockets are memories of me with you

Memories too large to fit into keyholes 

And whose strength lies in coupling not cutting ties and locks 


I am ill-equipped to dig up a cogent and coherent history for myself 

Out of this stupendous dereliction 

Before you, there was a secular dispersion

After you, well, I am (w)holy congregated

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